It’s been 135 days since I last wrote a blog post. Some days I’ve had a lot to say, others nothing at all. And, for some reason, I didn’t feel like I could come back to writing without offering an explanation for my absence – even though I don’t owe that to anyone. I didn’t feel like I could just jump back in with a post about how RA has affected my body image, and, at times, disordered eating even though I’ve been working on it off and on since last July. This is my 5th attempt at writing since surgery, and I still don’t know what I want to say. So much has happened. Medically, personally, politically even.
I held off on writing this post for a while because I don’t trust the healthcare system not to fail me at every turn. Also, I’ve been battling a head cold (that’s now drained into my lungs/chest) that I just can’t seem to get over. It’s amazing how something that is a minor inconvenience to others can completely knock me out for the better part of a week.